September has her challenges

September.  It has always been a tough month for me.
I don't know why.
Yes I do.
This year I decided to change it up.  I want to set some goals and achieve them, so next year, I'll look back at September and think, "wow, last September was so busy, I stayed off memory lane".

September got better 12 years ago, when Rosey was born, but as is common in my life, the joke is that she was born on the very last day of the month, so as not to disturb my melancholy.

This year, I'm going to make September my bitch.
I have already committed to a meditation practice, and it is helping with self awareness.
That has lead to a personal challenge of "no spend" September.  I have set a goal to not spend any money on things that are not necessary.  When I say that, it doesn't apply to groceries, restaurant meals, etc.  It applies to things that I buy on impulse.  Clearance Items at Target,  "cute" things at T.J. Maxx, Michael's, my true obsession.., my haunts.  During my meditation practice, my thoughts wander to stress about "things.". I have too many.  I have always surrounded myself with stuff, and attached value to it.  I am determined to stop that and leave space for what is important.  This is a huge step for me.

My other commitment is to be here, on the Blog every day.  EVERY DAY. HERE.
Thinking thoughts out loud and sharing.

It is time for September to be recognized for her beauty and this year, I will reconcile with her.
She is forgiven.  I assign her the role of transition month, no longer will she be filled with that kind of ache that can't be cured, or plagued by memories of things that sharply remind me of people and things that were left behind during her darker days. I will treat myself gently and take moments to say some sacred goodbyes, while I think out loud here.  Forgive me if I repeat myself.  It will be for my own good.